Dr Melba Pattillo Beals was born in a store cupboard in a hospital in Little Rock, Arkansas in 1941 – the only space grudgingly offered her mother by white doctors. She survived to become, 15 years later, one of the Little Rock Nine, nine African American children chosen to integrate into the Central High School. Pictures of the children escorted by troopers through a screaming mob of white people are seared into the national consciousness.

She has written 'I Will Not Fear' to tell of how her faith in God sustained her during her darkest days, helping her to become a civil rights warrior, an NBC television news reporter, a magazine writer, a professor, a wife, and a mother.

This is an extract used with permission.

December days in Little Rock, Arkansas, are filled with a foggy ground chill that bites the bones, no matter how many coats and hats one wears. On December 1, 1941, my grandmother, India Peyton, was midway on a twelve-block walk to downtown in order to see a supervisor at Missouri Pacific Hospital. She was seeking permission for my mother to be given space in the maternity section because Mother Lois was about to give birth to me. Grandma worried that the bulge of my weight in her daughter's stomach far outweighed her capacity to birth me.

'White folks don't take kindly to the notion that one of us might be in their hospital. But because Daddy Howell was a worker there, there was some hope we could get your mother in. Your mother's belly was stretched bigger than God planned it to be,' Grandma would later tell me.

Mother Lois was five feet four and weighed ninety-three pounds. Doctors estimated that I could weigh at least nine pounds. Grandmother had already been told that she would not be allowed to bring her daughter to the hospital, no matter the risk.

The previous morning, Grandmother India had been turned down again by the clerk. She requested to see a higher-ranking supervisor to plead for entry for Mom. Now a little more than halfway there, walking as fast as she could, she wondered whether she would ever get there. The fierce wind bit her legs and seared her cheeks. She felt as though it would knock her down. If she could have made the trip a little later, she could have ridden the bus. But at 5:30 in the morning, no buses were running. She could not risk being even a moment late for her 7:00 a.m. job as a maid at the hotel.

Protecting her face with her gloved hands, she tried hard to see what was in front of her. Grandmother decided that the only way she was going to complete her trip was to pray aloud the familiar Lord's Prayer. Upon arrival at the back door, the entry assigned to people of color, she wondered whether she had the strength to swing the heavy double doors with the strong wind blowing. Just then the door swung open

for her, and Mr Jeffers, the janitor, reached his hand out to her and pulled her inside to the warmth.

'Miss India, what on earth is a body doing out here in all this freezing weather?'

Taking off her glasses to clear the fog, she asked Mr. Jeffers to point her to Mr Van Albor's office.

'Ohhh, Miss India, why you looking for him? He ain't gonna see nobody like us.'

'I need to get doctoring for my baby. She's with child, and I want her to come here because the baby is really big. That baby weighs too much for her little body to carry.'

'Oh Lord, you know they ain't gonna let that happen. The saying here is, if you let one in, they'll all think they're entitled to be here.'

'I got no choice, Mr Jeffers. I gotta save my baby's life.'

She turned and walked toward the elevator, following his directions. On the third floor, there stood the huge wooden door that led to the hospital supervisor's office.

'I need Your help, dear Lord.' She hesitated a moment to whisper her prayer before she knocked for permission to enter.

'Good morning, Aintee. I understand you want me to do the impossible.'

'No, sir. I want you to please help me save my daughter's life. My son-in-law, Howell Pattillo, is a good man and is one of your workers here. He is a Hostler's helper on the Missouri Pacific Railroad.'

'You're not asking for special treatment, are you? You know very well that Negras aren't coddled here.'

Grandma winced because he used the familiar word Negra, which racist white folks called a compromise – a combination between nigger and Negro. She grasped control of herself as she squeezed her feeling tight in her throat. She could ill afford to offend him at this point.

'No, sir, of course not.'

'The answer is no, Aintee. Why are you wasting my time?'

Grandma says her heart sank as she moved toward the door, and then she remembered what her pastor had instructed.

'Bishop Riley said I should ask because it is so important to save my daughter's life. She's a schoolteacher and a Christian. We and Bishop Riley would be grateful.'

Grandmother's pastor had advised that the only possible way to get her daughter into the hospital was if Bishop Riley supported her. He was the only African American in our community who held sway over some members of the white community. Nobody seemed to know why, but everybody in our community knew it was just so.

'Aintee, now you know that there's no way I can give you a regular room. I'll allow her to stay here in a storage room. We have an empty room. So it's yours while it's empty. She needs to have that baby before a week passes. Do you hear me? A week.'

'Oh, thank you, sir, thank you. I will report your kindness to the bishop.'

'Hold on, Aintee. Don't get any ideas about inviting your relatives and friends to celebrate. Only you, the father, and the mother can come in that back door, and be quiet. Nobody needs to know you all are here.'

'Yes, sir.'

'And there will be no birth certificate saying that baby was born here. I don't want a parade of Negras marching here stinking up the place.'

'Of course, sir.'

Backing out of the office, curtseying with her hands in a praying position, Grandmother was very grateful.

On Saturday afternoon, December 6, Mother Lois began harsh, prolonged contractions and spurts of pain that overcame her. Papa dropped her and Grandma off just outside the hospital back door. Mother was in a small, windowless but clean room. She began what would become a long night and next day filled with drama and pain with Grandmother at her side.

The room Mother occupied was down an isolated hallway. When Grandmother asked for pain medication, the nurse said, 'Give you niggers an inch and you take a mile.'

Early the next morning, Mother was wrenched with pain and covered with perspiration. Grandmother feared that nurses and doctors would ignore her. She telephoned Dr Routen, a white doctor who had been our family doctor for several years. He came to the hospital and summoned another physician to give Mother medicine and take her to the delivery room.

Meanwhile, Dad discovered a radio down the hall and was busy going back and forth between the two rooms as he announced, 'Pearl Harbor has been attacked.'

December 7, 1941, was a traumatic day that looms in this country's history! Bombs were bursting in air as Pearl Harbor was shattered. Hearing announcements of this tragic event was secondary in Mother's life as she prepared to give birth to her first child.

Grandmother prayed and read Bible verses as Father meandered back and forth with news of Pearl Harbor. They anticipated a difficult birth. It lasted thirty hours. Mother Lois was petite – while Father was six feet four and two hundred pounds. As time grew near, Grandmother reported that there were signs of trouble. Dad was not called, as men were not allowed in the delivery room.

When the birth process grew ever more difficult, the doctor decided to use forceps, though admitting this practice could lead to infection. I weighed nine pounds, eight ounces.

After the birth was complete, Mom and I were taken to the storage room. On the way out, Grandma remembered seeing Mr Jeffers cleaning the birth room.

By my first evening on earth, December 7, it was evident that my head was swelling, and I could not keep my tiny hands from scratching. Grandma said I cried all night long, but even though she pled with the nurse, no one would come to address my problem. By Monday, my temperature had soared to 103 degrees. My hot, swollen head was an open, bleeding wound, which alarmed Mother, Grandmother, and Father.

By Tuesday, December 9, my temperature was 105. The doctor announced that the infection was spreading, and I probably would not make it. He operated on my head and inserted irrigating tubes.

The next day, just outside Mother's door, Mr. Jeffers was sweeping the floor. When he heard Grandmother praying aloud as Mother cried softly, he stepped inside the door and expressed his concern. 'I guess washing her head with that there Epsom salts did not work,' he lamented.

'What Epsom salts?" Grandmother asked.

'The doctor told the nurse the baby's head needs rinsing every two hours or so with Epsom salts.'

'No,"' Grandmother said, 'the baby's been here with us, and the nurse has not come to rinse her head.'

Racing down the hallway, Grandma got ahold of the nurse. 'We do not coddle niggers here,' the red-haired nurse shouted. 'Understand I don't have time for you or your baby. You don't belong here!'

Grandmother grabbed her purse and left for the store to purchase Epsom salts. Only by the grace of God and an angel carrying a broom did I live. Three days later, we left the hospital.

As a child growing up, I always fretted about the bald strip that ran from the top of my misshapen head down to the right ear. I was so afraid that one of my friends would say something. Grandmother always quieted my fretting – explaining that it was proof of how special I was in God's eyes because He had saved my life against all odds. 'God has been kind to give you beautiful hair like shiny black satin to cover your scar. No one will know,' she said. 'God has rescued you from death because He has special assignments for you. You will get word of the tasks you are to perform when He deems you ready for His work.'

That special assignment came fifteen years later in September of 1957, when I was chosen as one of the Little Rock Nine – nine African American children selected by the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People (NAACP) to integrate Central High School in Little Rock, Arkansas, amid a firestorm of angry mobs determined to keep us out.

It was not until fifty years later that I learned the enormity of the blessing I was granted. A cranial specialist was to examine my head because I had felt some discomfort after I accidently caught my head when closing the car trunk. As the nurse entered the room to gather preliminary information, I greeted her. She examined my head and began talking loudly and slowly to me as though I was hard of hearing and mentally disabled.

'What day is it?' she shouted, leaning in close, staring at me.

'Tuesday,' I said, curious about her behavior.

Who is president?' she screeched.

'President Clinton, William Jefferson Clinton,' I repeated.

At first, I cooperated with her line of questions, but then I screamed, 'Lady, I am a professor with a doctoral degree. How can I help you?'

That is when, with an astonished expression, she explained to me that with my misshapen head and the nature of the injury, I could have suffered cerebral palsy or another severe brain injury. The doctor said I was a walking miracle.

I whispered, 'Thank You, God,' all the way back to the car.

What I know for sure is that we have a God who guides and protects us. God is always available when we call for help and even when we are unable or unwilling to call. He intervenes to rescue us, even when we don't know we need help.

'I Will Not Fear' is published by Baker Publishing Group.